I love it when there are flowers on the trees. When we were driving home yesterday there were these trees that have little red flowers everywhere that were blowing, it’s so kool. I don’t know what those are called but there’s one called the poui tree that has these bright yellow flowers, those are the best. Just before I left Trinidad this year they were blooming and they are even brighter than the ones here, so good. Anyway, on to more sensible stuff.

On Saturdays my church youth group has its meeting and last Saturday we had a bible study with my father, one of the elders, and he talked about...damn can’t even remember. Ok, he talked about what is expected of non-Christians. He pretty much said (and proved, somewhat) that God expects the same from everybody and the whole time I was kinda feeling like he was talking directly to me because I always ask that; ‘what about me?’ since I’m not a Christian. But it wasn’t like when those old people stand up in church and say Oh they felt like God had a special message for them that day, it was more like my mother told him and he went and looked it up. but I think it was more for this other kid, whose mother is one of the ‘leaders’ of the group who has actually said to me ‘He has done everything a parent hopes their child will never do’. And I’ve heard stuff about him too, he does stuff. Anyway I thought I had more to say on the matter but I’ve completely forgotten where I planned to go with this.
Ok I remember some more now. I guess I never really thought that the standards were different for Christians and non-Christians but what remains is that I still don’t believe that it ultimately makes a difference when a non-Christian sins because no matter what sin u commit or how many there are you’re basically still going to end up the same place. The way I see it my fate has already been decided and I have no real control over it so if I’m going to burn I might as well enjoy myself down here and if not then what I do now is not going to have much effect on that either so what’s the point really? Enough about that.

I went to sleep long after 2:00 this morning and for some insane reason i was up at 6:47, well a little before that actually coz it took me a few minutes to be awake enough to remember that my watch was in my church pants that i wore yesterday and was drapped over the ironing board next to my bed. I stayed there re-reading queen of the dammned since AJ returned it yesterday and it was already on the bed.
I actually just got back from a meeting in the church for bible school teachers. We’re short on teachers this year because it’s mostly us young people who teach and this year half of us have jobs or are away so today we got shuffled around again and I’m back with the little kids (yay). But not my usual preschoolers though, I have kindergarten but at least I’m there with those guys. It’s really hard to deal with children so young and we’ve never been able to handle them well yet so hopefully since 3 of the 4 of us have a few years under our belts with those kids we’ll be able to have a decent go at it this year. I pray God that I will not be on the verge of collapsing with fatigue at the end of the first week again this year. Honestly you would not believe how tiring dealing with only seven 2-4 year olds can be, even though it’s only a couple of hours a day.

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