Somehow whenever I have something to write about I can never get a chance to sit down and write about it. So now a whole bunch of stuff has happened since my last entry and I am sure I’ve forgotten some of it and I certainly don’t remember when the rest of it happened. So here goes.

The first thing I want to write about has a back story. One day, earlier this year while I was still with my aunt, this guy calls me up. He’s the cousin of a guy I had been speaking to online for probably a good few months and he tells me that this internet guy wants to talk to me online tonight. Now I had been expecting a call from him because he was visiting the island and we were supposed to meet but he was there for his grandmother’s funeral so it wasn’t a big deal that it didn’t happen. So I go online that night with the express purpose of finding out what was so important that he just had to talk to me that night. So this guy, to whom I had made it very clear that I was not gay and was not interested in a relationship, is talking about moving back down here pretty much to be with me. So of course I’m like ‘what the hell are you talking about?’ and he says that he thought that I had changed my mind due to the way that I had been talking to him lately (although had even been talking frequently at the time). Anyway, the scene I just related may not be precise but that’s the gist of it. I go on to try and explain to him that I had no intention of making him think anything other than what I expressed in our (probably) first conversation. Of course he’s hurt because I guess he feels rejected and he made a fool of himself…whatever. I am not sure I want to say this but it’s a big part of the story. half the times that we spoke I had my cam on but he didn’t have one so he could see me but I’ve never seen him and sometimes I do naughty stuff on my web cam and one time when I was being really naughty I let him watch. (I’m such a coward for saying it like that) Forward to this week, we have spoken again no more than a handful of times in the months since the ‘rejection’ incident and he pops up suddenly. As usual I am chatting with my cam on and I invite him and partly in jest I ask when we’re going to talk face to face, so he says he’s getting one soon but if I’ll be online Friday then he can borrow one from a friend. Friday I’m online, he’s online, he has the friend’s cam and is trying to install it. Finally he gets it on and he’s like ok look at the ugly bastard I am. Now I’m a brutally honest guy most times and just plain honest the rest of the time and when I did see him I thought ‘damn, you’re right’ but saying that would be just nasty. Since I didn’t want to lie I said ‘Yes u are ugly, haha’ to make it sound like I was being sarcastic. With all that said you know two things about him, he’s what I call ‘clingy’ (other events prove that) and he’s ugly. Now the ‘clingy’ thing I really hate and that alone is motive for me to tell him to fuck off but I guess I was just holding out to see what he looked like and I didn’t see him online very often so I never bothered to think of it. I hate to be so superficial but it looks like I am because with two strikes against him… I don’t want to tell him the truth and I don’t want to tell him half the truth like I did with the last guy whose attention rubbed me the wrong way (no pun) because of incident with said guy and just putting him on my ignore list would be the ultimate bitchy thing to do. Right now I really wish I had a whole bunch of readers so I could get some advice but I think I’ve already decided my course of action anyway so it doesn’t really matter. I didn’t think I would write this much about this.

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