just got home from school. my telecom teacher looked so hot today.

i wish i had some kind of creative skill or talent. like writing or drawing or something. something that i was really good at. some people might say that i'm a good writer but i don't really consider myself a writer. a diarist- yes (well duh); a poet naw coz i've written a few and most of them suck. i can't draw shit to save my life and it would be so kool if i could coz i'm so visual. by that i mean take music for example, when i listen to a song i like to take apart all the different instruments and all the different vocal parts and listen to them individually and i keep each of the voices by visualising them floating around me, each in its own position. i 'see' it in 3D but no colour. and i remember things by keeping whole images too. (what was i talking about...?)ok so i cant write and i can't draw. being able to write music would be cool but i'm just not creative that way - my mind tends to be a little to mathematical to make up melodies and even if i could i would not be able to get it on paper coz i'm not good at playing by ear. i lie to sing too but i' not that good at it and that's not exactly being creative now is it D? what else is there? lyricist, poet, novelist - nope, painting, drawing, etc. - nope, arranging or writing melodies - nope...can't think of nothin else. i bet if i could get my foot in the music industry door i could be a good producer or something - one of those things where u don't really have to come up with your own ideas all you have to do is make other people's stuff sound good. coz i'm good at that. or maybe a movie/video director or something. but those things are really unrealistic for me coz there's no way for me to get into the industry from the tiny i island i call home (the music/art industry here really SUCKS) and i am so not capable or willing to go through the amount of formal schooling it would take to get a job like that. that being said i'm on to another topic

my mom sent me food yesterday. a big ole heavy ass bag full of macaroni and juice(the kind i like but can't get here) and chocolate soy milk (the kind i like but can't get here) and cans of stuff. AND a whole chicken, baked and everything (whoopee!!!). don't i have a great mommy? but she forgot to send me my grey cup with the cover, oh well u can't have everything (all at once).

damn i totally forgot to go fax the letter this morning - shit!

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